transparency

to reveal one's true feelings

lucis: very secretive about his past, will dodge the question when asked or shut them down

sfina: though she seems incredibly open, she keeps a lot of her true thoughts about other to herself to avoid criticism

syriense: DEEPLY ashamed of his past, will not tell anyone unless it was to albrose and literally on his death bed (or if he found out it wasn't him...)

arcael: due to his parents stifling his true self, he hides his personality away from others, it's difficult for him to tell others about his personal life or his interests
also feels need to be perfect guy, always pretty placid
hard to tell his feelings

albrose: doesn't WANT to be transparent - actively tries to make herself seem less so in an attempt to make people want to stay by her

lucis + arcael:
lucis is very open about his feelings (minus past), arcael is very not
a conversation after an argument about how arcael literally never tells lucis anything and keeps secrets:

l: all the time, i don't know how you're feeling! you never tell me anything, or talk about yourself, or... or anything! i just want you to be honest with me.
a: i mean, it's not like i know anything about you before ERiS either- (deflecting)
l: i know!! i know but... i never even asked about you back then either! i get that... i get that we both don't want to bring those things up yet but.. right now.. RIGHT NOW, i want to talk to you! about your feelings, like when you're sad, or when you're happy too! i want you to tell me when you're feeling down so i can help you! you're like,, my other, half, yknow?? you're smarter than me, and nicer than me,, better than me.. you make up for all my problems. i want to be that person for you too. because.. i don't know what i'd do .. without you... (crying a lil)
a:...
l (holding a's hand, also definitely super crying, scales out): i just.. i just want us to be able to talk to each other.. because we're boyfriends, arcael. you know, i'll always be on your side. for anything.
a (///): i'm sorry, lucis.

syriense + sfina: (sfina character moment, part of syriense's self-loathing/thoughts on others --> pushing them away, cynical, critical of others)
vulgar language ahead :000 oops.!

sf: ..i'm sorry that happened.. do you want to talk about it? i'm here for you.
sy (coldly): you…i don't need your pity. go fuck off with this self-fellating bs
sf: …self-fellating? pity??? sorry, i'm just trying to care for you??!
sy: this is what i'm talking about - see? all of you only fake being sweet or whatever to feel better about yourselv-
sf: stop. no. NO! OKAY, JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN TREAT ME LIKE THIS, LIKE SOME HUGE DICKHEAD!!!
sf: AND FAKE?? OKAY, YEAH, I CAN BE REAL TOO! IF YOU WANT REAL, RIGHT NOW IS THE REALEST ME!! YOU'RE EVER GOING TO GET!! I CAN BE MEAN AND NASTY LIKE RIGHT NOW, I CAN JUST HIDE IT BECAUSE I'M A NICE PERSON!!!! IT'S NOT LIKE I'M THE ONLY ONE - EVERYONE HAS ANOTHER SIDE TO THEM!!
sf: AND YOU KNOW WHAT?? I AM ACTUALLY REALLY NICE! I'M PROBABLY ONE OF THE NICEST PEOPLE YOU KNOW!! DO YOU KNOW ANYONE NICER?? I DOUBT IT! ALL OF THIS IS THE “REAL”ME, YOU KNOW?? I CAN BE BOTH AT THE SAME TIME!!
I DO FEEL BETTER WHEN I DO THINGS FOR YOU GUYS BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO FEEL BETTER!!! THAT'S JUST HOW IT WORKS, SO WHY ARE YOU DIS.. DISPARAGING ME FOR IT?? OBVIOUSLY I CAN TRY TO EMPATHIZE WITH ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS!!!
sf: AND I TRY REALLY RRREALLY HARD YOU KNOW??? EVERY! SINGLE! DAY!! YOU THINK I DON'T CARE ABOUT WHEN YOU SAY STUFF LIKE THIS??? I'M TIRED OF BEING THE ONLY PERSON WHO APPARENTLY CARES ABOUT THE OTHER PERSON'S FEELINGS IN HERE!!

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